Sunday, May 02, 2010

David Campbell, Discipline

“Discipline is remembering what you want.”

David Campbell

Friday, April 30, 2010

End of Raw?

I think that's the end of "raw." Three and a half years of blogging -- three and a half of the worst years of my life, and things are looking to get worse when I have no job, no money, and no place to live, in about 28 days from now.

I'd like to close the blog with a (repeat?) quote from my favorite of favorites, Francis Bacon -- founder of modern science, the real Shakespeare, mastermind behind the colonization of the Americas, and, just as likely as not, still living. I am paraphrasing him:

"A little learning inclineth the mind to atheism, but, greatness of learning bringeth the mind back to God."

The years 2000-2010 were all about "greatness of learning" for me, just as the '90s were about crap knowledge given to the masses. You could say I discovered God in about 2008 or so, when I got seriously into Theosophy. I owe so much, in this incarnation, to Manly P. Hall and Helena P. Blavatsky -- words can simply not express. And, perhaps the above quote can sum up the lesson I learned in this incarnation -- and that I'll take with me to the grave.

In mid-2005 or so, I started using "The Secret", i.e., using positive affirmations to change my life, accomplish my goals, etc. When I applied "The Secret" to trying to discover what I really want to accomplish, I came up with several goals that covered the gamut of knowledge, and gleaned from the Library of Congress classification system. That systems divides all knowledge into 22 categories, so I set a goal to become "the greatest" in each of these, e.g., "I have become the greatest philosopher ...", "I have become the greatest psychologist ..." etc., for all 22 knowledge areas.

After a year, that process lead to my discovery of 9/11 being an inside job, then about the fraudulent banking/financial system, legal system, education system, then about suppressed technology and secret societies, chemtrails, false religions, and on and on. All of this very much mimicked the way that Truman discovered his world to be false. Now, even though I'm on the verge of total impecuniousness I am disenchanted with the world and often wish to be free from humanity forever -- there is nothing about living in "the system" that attracts me.

The world is almost entirely psychopathic, not because it needs to be so, but because it's artificially maintained in that way. I watched G. Edward Griffin interview congressman Norman Dodd a few years back, and Dodd mentioned that a woman he worked with eventually lost her mind as a result of reading the minutes from the meetings of certain tax-exempt foundations in the States during the early to mid-1900s. The point is that we have the most anti-social people actually running society -- and it has been that way for thousands of years! It's not only depressing, it can truly test the sanity of any human -- naturally social -- being. The situation is like playing on a team (say the human species?) and finding out that members on your own team are conspiring against you (and all the while saying, "Oh nooooo! We're not conspiring against you.").

One of my great desires over the past few years has been to discover why the "conspiracies" exist -- why must things be the way they are? I have concluded that the social axiom, "nothing is as it seems to be" applies at the individual level as well, "I am not what I appear to be." I am not a human being, and I am not mortal. There would be no need for such deception at the social level if as I were as I appear to be.

Come to think of it, maybe it's not the end of raw. I'm having plenty of trouble at the temp. job I'm at right now because of the heavy lifting -- my right knee and back are turning into Swiss cheese. I don't want to give up the income, but I can still walk relatively well and normally -- I'd like to keep it that way. I'm feeling totally alienated from all humans, which I see as monsters and beasts at the etheric level (well, I and most of the occultists throughout history), so I'm very interested in "disappearing", getting away from humans for as long as it takes to become pure etherically, and consequently illuminated. I don't know if I'm going back to work next week or not.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

I went and bought that waterproof gear I wrote about in an earlier blog entry. Shoes, pants, and jacket -- all waterproof. I tested them today -- the first rain-day since I bought them. Very good stuff, I'm very pleased. The pants actually get "wet," but the wetness doesn't penetrate, and they dry in minutes. I actually submerged my shoes in the park lake, up to the top of the laces -- no leak.

I still feel very close to "illumination" -- still so close, still so far. In a few weeks I'll be "homeless", but I already sleep in the park every night anyway. My main concern, though, is finding somewhere etherically pure and clean to live.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Plans for summer?

I realized on the weekend that I don't relax but am always under stress, tension. So, I made yet more subliminals, this time along the lines of "I have the capacity to relax." That was what lead me to rattlesnake point on Monday -- I wanted to follow the same trend all week, as the weather was nice, but the laborer at Mimac broke his finger and I'll be replacing him for at least two weeks, if I choose to work there that long. I had other plans but it's tough to turn down money.

I wonder if I'll ever get the chance to spend some time at rattlesnake point -- all week this would have been amazing. I bought a new sleeping bag -- a three season -- on the weekend. The thor bag was a bit too warm for spring, but the main reason I returned it was the loft was very uneven, i.e., some parts were well insulated, some parts not. I spent all afternoon on Sunday at MEC downtown, their spring gear was interesting. I'm interested in their waterproof gear mainly, because I expect the HAARP-ers to make it rain a lot this year, like they did last year. A pair of supremely comfortable water-proof shoes run at 130$ plus tax, a waterproof jacket for about 100$, and the water-proof pants, I'm not sure. The cheapest bivy bag is 150$ plus tax. That already runs to 400$, not including the waterproof socks that I also tried on.

There are several organic farms in Ontario taking volunteers, I still haven't contacted any of them -- I have to pay 45$ to join WWOOF.ca. Say, would you like to pay the fee so I can surf farms?

I'm considering getting a room to rent in Milton of all places because of the proximity to rattlesnake point. I spoke to one person renting a room in her house (living with her boyfriend) for 425 per month. Other than that, I haven't looked, but I'd like to be close to nature so I'm keen on going to Milton in June.

Monday, April 12, 2010

What a Cool Day

What a cool day I had today. Predictably good weather-Monday -- thanks to HAARP-ERS and chemtrails, i.e., weather controllers. I went to Rattlesnake point today -- spent 7 hours there, hiking with Tina and reading for an hour or two, then hiking again. I thought I lost my keys somewhere along the trail, but they were behind the car, thankfully, I dropped them as soon as I locked the car -- Ceci's key chain is very weak.

I'm going to make some meatloaf tonight, a la Maker's diet, but with Halal meat. I'd love to try kosher meat, but very difficult to come across -- only one butcher in all of the fucking GTA!

Bye!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Purify the Etheric Body

Four months into the year -- a year in which I believed that I could become spiritually illuminated. And I had the method: purify the chakras, purify the etheric body. Funny how "chakras" and "etheric" both show up as misspelled on my text editor. Alas, humanity has a long way to go. And I don't want to be there to see them through.

I saw some very gruesome pictures and videos of suicides ... real suicides. There are some very nasty websites out there, it's totally sick what you might find if you look. I saw several pictures of murders as well, very nasty stuff. All this to say that death, premature death, doesn't really turn me on -- I have been hoping for a long time to suicide my way out of this life, but after seeing what death looks like, I think I'd like to reconsider.

I saw Tracy again last week, which was the "golden section" week since my birthday. I mentioned for the first time how, 2 years ago before Carolina opened me up and practically killed me in the process, I had actually started making subliminals that said things like "I have died, I have found a way to die, etc." That was triggered by the loss of 2500$ on my credit card early in '08. Well, that and living with two women who both have some of the nastiest third chakra energy I have ever been forced to endure. And also the other 30,000$ that I lost over the two years prior to '08. In any case, the long and short is that I asked for it, the experience of "death" with Carolina -- I experienced exactly what I asked for with my subliminals, except ... well, the old phrase, "be careful what you wish for."

I still feel raped every day by people's energy (remember the Bogg's scenes from Shawshank Redemption?) which means that this place (the Earth) might still get the best of me, as it almost got the best of Andy Dufraisne. Almost, but for the OUTDOOR DETAIL. I have not started looking for a place to stay in June when I have to move -- I'm still focused on "illumination" and especially removing the leeches from my second and third chakras. Just like Cecilia's working towards her bodybuilding competition, I'm training for my etheric body competition -- I've got to become purified, I've got to become clean -- it's as hard as coming from the slums and making 20 million rupees (the answer to the question is destiny, btw). It's about as hard as trying to wash yourself off with mud -- I mean, how can I become clean when all I have to work with is dirt?

I've seen two movies in the past little while that have to do with death -- "Into the Wild", directed by Sean Penn, and "Le Grand Bleu", directed by the amazing Luc Besson (I believe). Both films involve the protagonists more or less insanely, more or less stupidly throwing their lives away. Even Truman did that at the very end -- because he wanted truth above all else (just like McCandless). Truth and reality are very different things -- actually they're polar opposites in this fake world. The only way you can approach truth is via destiny, just like Jamal did.

I've come to believe that spiritual illumination is the most important of all pursuits -- does that make me a religious freak, fanatic? But wait, the Illuminati own the banks, the education systems, the military, all technology -- they own your very thoughts and wishes, and your future, and the future of your children. So, illumination must be pretty important. Truman had to reach a point where he gave up his existence in order to know truth -- and I have to reach that same point. It is yet to be reached. I don't know how to reach it, but if it's destiny that I become illuminated, then I will find a way.

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

April 5 - ish

I just calculated that the golden section date of my birth year (which starts on aug. 26) is today, or yesterday -- in other words 7 months and 11 days since my birthday (also the orbital period of Venus around the sun).

I just noticed, watching the Truman Show again, that the Loren character's real name is "Sylvia", which means "from the forest." So, the character, which I believe is the angel that everybody has in their auric field (specifically the emotion body, or soul, as I refer to it), fits in very well with my attempts to get out into the forest for purification and enlightenment. I also heard M.P. Hall recently talk about how ancient sanctuaries/places of worship where originally out in nature. I guess the renaissance architects/catholic church took care of that one?

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

I Think Its Time for Me to Go ...


















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"Rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness, give me truth."

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

The Rosicrucians

I haven't been silent about my admiration and respect for the brothers of the Rosy Cross. Here is a link to a "brochure" put out by a now worldwide school called the Lectorium Rosicrucianum.

Link

Monday, March 29, 2010

Eternal Life Resides in ...

the heart.

Despite the fact that I haven't "worked" or had a "job" in the past ... 20 or so years doesn't mean I haven't grown in my own way, and struggled for survival in my own way. The mind is a destructive instrument -- humans come together to create society to protect themselves from the elements of nature and then find out that the only element they really need protection from is humanity itself. This is a nightmare -- and no nightmare is real, by the way -- that needs waking up from. How do you wake up from a nightmare you're dreaming in your waking state? How can you wake up from the collective nightmare that humanity is dreaming for itself, called modern society? There is no escape. If you want to find a way out, there is no way out. No way out but one, that is.

The heart.

The heart is the "message in the bottle". The heart is the tree in the middle of the desert that is its own water and its own food and needs no external nourishment to grow and flourish. It is the divinity within each of us, it is entirely self-sufficient because it is the spark of god in us, it is eternal and immortal.

Many people have "accused" me of being too cerebral. Tracy, Catherine, Anthony, Jason, probably Joyce and Charity, and many, many others have accused me of being too much "in my head". Hmmm, I wonder why. Now, I know that these people were just the means of telling myself to start thinking with my heart instead of my head. "As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he."

Yes, I believe I have come to the end of my karmic cycle, that it's time for me to leave this world, so to speak -- in the same way that one wakes up from a dream. It's time for me to wake up! Reality awaits, eternity awaits, it's time to bid time goodbye.

20 years of mental exercise -- from the time I was 16 till now -- has resulted in me coming more or less to the end of my mind. What is the end of all knowledge? I can't remember who said it, I wish I could, but someone said "The end of all knowledge is to obey." To obey what?

The heart. There is only one ticket up to the higher universes, only one ticket to immortality -- that is to start living from the only part within us that is immortal -- no, not the liver, not the brain, but the heart.

Buddhists or hindus, or somebody, know that the mind can never actually know anything -- whence the entire field of epistemology that has yet to come up with a single conclusion. It is only the heart that can know.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

I Googled "Help with Spiritual Awakening"

... and this is what I got

They all apply to me (the "twelve signs of spiritual awakening"), but, I just read number 12, and ... wow!

#12. A deep longing to go Home. This is perhaps the most difficult and challenging of any of the conditions. You may experience a deep and overwhelming desire to leave the planet and return to Home. This is not a "suicidal" feeling. It is not based in anger or frustration. You don't want to make a big deal of it or cause drama for yourself or other. There is a quiet part of you that wants to go Home. The root cause for this is quite simple. You have completed your karmic cycles. You have completed your contract for this lifetime. You are ready to begin a new lifetime while still in this physical body. During this transition process, you have an inner remembrance of what it is like to be on the other side. Are you ready to enlist for another tour of duty here on Earth? Are you ready to take on the challenges of moving into the New Energy? Yes, indeed you could go Home right now. But you've come this far, and after many, many lifetimes it would be a shame to leave before the end of the movie. Besides, Spirit needs you here to help others transition into the new energy. They will need a human guide, just like you, who has taken the journey from the old energy into the new. The path you're walking right now provides the experiences to enable you to become a Teacher of the New Divine Human. As lonely and dark as your journey can be at times, remember that you are never alone.
I'm very displeased

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Antkiller!

For those of you using the new Splenda sugar substitute which you can buy at Costco, let me tell you what
a great ant killer it is. We were having bigtime ant problems here. At night they would eat the leaves off our
grapefruit, lemon, lime and and orange trees. They would travel in single file a hundred feet or more from
the source of the goodies to the nest holes in the ground. Many excavations including several right next to
the foundation of the house. Well, I read where Splenda started out as an ant killer and when they discovered
how sweet it was they turned it into a sugar substitute. Poisonous for ants but not for humans???
See my page at www.detailshere.com/splenda.htm for why you don't want to use it as a sugar substitute. Right
in there with sacharin and aspartame. But I did try it out on all the ant nest entrances. Bingo, GONE. I can't find
any trace of ants or fresh dirt being removed or more leaves disappearing. Apparently the took it inside the nest
from the entrance and it did a whammy on them.
Costco also sells PureVia www.purevia.com which is a Stevia plant based product, also zero calories but
no detrimental effects. I understand Coke and Pepsi are planning to come out with a diet drink using stevia
for the sweetener. Still doesn't account for the phosphoric acid in the these pop products that's stripping the
calcium from your bones and giving you sponge bones that are brittle and easily broken as well as turning your
body acid which opens it up to all kinds of diseases. One 12 ounce coke at pH4.0 will require 32 glasses of
pH 10.5 water to neutralize it. One 12 ounce coke a day will also put 8 pounds of fat on your body in a year.
Interesting. I'm becoming very fond of lemonade sweetened with Stevia.

From detailshere.com

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Things are about to go nuclear.

2010 the movie is about spiritual illumination -- a star being born -- just like Truman show (the story of my life).



2010 is turning out to be a crunch time year for me -- a year where I put my knowledge, slowly but surely acquired over 20 years, to the test. Spiritual tests are tests of the hardest kind. I think about Blavatsky's comment, buried somewhere in the pages of Isis Unveiled, that spiritual awakening is the hardest thing to do in the universe. But, I'm reminded of the first few words (and the chorus) of Eminem's "Lose Yourself" song -- it seems like my whole life has been "training", "preparation" for this experience, this moment. Am I going to drop the ball? Um ... traveling from one state of consciousness to another, from one state of being to another, is not something I had consciously planned for this life. But, the moment is at hand. "You can do anything you set your mind to, man."



Hello to the Brothers RC.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Icke on Polio

David Icke Newsletter Preview
HOW TO 'ERADICATE' A DISEASE

Polio vaccine propaganda
... HEY, PRESTO - CHANGE ITS NAME

We are told that polio has been 'beaten' in most countries by a vaccine when all they have done is given the symptoms other names. Staggering, yes, but true

Hey, Rotary International. What are you doing supporting this scam? Get informed

The David Icke Newsletter Goes Out On Sunday

All these scams and others caused the official figures for polio to fall dramatically and the credit was given to the vaccine when, in truth, cases of infantile paralysis were actually growing rapidly - doubling between 1957 and 1959.

Dr Bernard Greenberg, head of the Department of Biostatistics at the University of North Carolina, told a Congressional hearing in 1962 that infantile paralysis cases had increased after the introduction of the vaccine by 50 per cent from 1957 to 1958, and by 80 per cent from 1958 to 1959.

Infantile paralysis is today known as Acute Flaccid Paralysis (AFP) and while America has been declared 'polio free' many thousands every year contract Acute Flaccid Paralysis - polio under another name.

Also there are thousands of cases a year in the United States of Guillian-Barré syndrome (re-designated polio) and the same with aseptic meningitis (re-designated polio). Then there are the thousands in America alone every year who contract a condition known as 'West Nile Fever' which can cause 'a polio-like syndrome with paralysis and impaired breathing'.

The pre-1957 definition of polio would today be recording many more cases than were seen during the epidemics of the 1950s which were supposed to have been eradicated by a vaccine that doesn't work, not least because polio is not caused by a virus - it is caused by pesticides and other toxins.

Monday, February 15, 2010

The Buddha Atom

I spent some time last night and this morning listening to M.P. Hall's history of the ancient Indian/Buddhist/Hindu and Chinese concepts of the atom. I was very intrigued by the Buddhist concepts of the atom, who thought that it's not material but spiritual -- alive and basically consists of thoughts.

And, according to Buddhism, love has an atomic existence, as does hate and every other thought or emotion-form -- anything and everything that exists in abstraction exists at an atomic level.

And, if you feel hate, you attract hate atoms into your energy field. Karma exists at an atomic level, so you can attract karma or starve karma out of your energy field by no longer attracting it.

Hall said that there is exists a unique, peculiar atom called the "Buddha atom", and I'm not sure -- I don't remember -- if he said that this atom is attracted to the person or born within the person, but the Buddha atom is attracted to or born within the individual when that individual genuinely decides that his or her life shall be useful to another, when that individual decides that he or she shall no longer seek simply the good of him- or herself but the good of all.

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

Hero Falls

Eustace Mullins was one of the few heroes in the world. Haven't heard of him? Watch the candid video at the end.