Monday, December 27, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Fucking Disaster of a Year
What a disaster of a fucking year. The only thing that went well was my initiation at Modern Mystery School, but even that was marred by contracting yet another entity from another "energy healer". Truly, truly I am in hell.
Maybe illumination lies in wait somewhere in '11?
2.5 years of trying to get rid of two entities I contracted in the span of about 20 minutes in '08. I feel that my karma is so incredibly bad that my higher self actually had a suicide planned for this life and is forcing me in that direction. What an asshole my higher self is! I suspect one suicide out of 800 or so lives is "necessary" for some inane reason. I'm very bitter towards God of late. I really thought '10 was my year to be illuminated, writing that I felt very close at the beginning of the year. I no longer feel close, just jaded, discouraged, exhausted, fearful, exasperated, bitter, angry.
In August '10 I did a 19 day fast followed by an etheric cord cutting. That lead to 6th chakra clarity I've never felt before. I got a job and an apartment but just two or three weeks later, after asking a true disgrace to humanity to pray for me I contracted all her shit as she tapped into my astral space for 9 straight days. Witch, witch, witch. Proves to me that catholicism is pure black magic and nothing else. Boy, oh boy, I'm not bitter. Once again what was mine became not mine. Then I saw Jason and Nora who sealed in all the crap I got from said witch so that guarantees that I'll never be able to clear my 6th chakra as I did in August -- at least not by fasting and cord cutting.
Maybe illumination lies in wait somewhere in '11?
2.5 years of trying to get rid of two entities I contracted in the span of about 20 minutes in '08. I feel that my karma is so incredibly bad that my higher self actually had a suicide planned for this life and is forcing me in that direction. What an asshole my higher self is! I suspect one suicide out of 800 or so lives is "necessary" for some inane reason. I'm very bitter towards God of late. I really thought '10 was my year to be illuminated, writing that I felt very close at the beginning of the year. I no longer feel close, just jaded, discouraged, exhausted, fearful, exasperated, bitter, angry.
In August '10 I did a 19 day fast followed by an etheric cord cutting. That lead to 6th chakra clarity I've never felt before. I got a job and an apartment but just two or three weeks later, after asking a true disgrace to humanity to pray for me I contracted all her shit as she tapped into my astral space for 9 straight days. Witch, witch, witch. Proves to me that catholicism is pure black magic and nothing else. Boy, oh boy, I'm not bitter. Once again what was mine became not mine. Then I saw Jason and Nora who sealed in all the crap I got from said witch so that guarantees that I'll never be able to clear my 6th chakra as I did in August -- at least not by fasting and cord cutting.
Friday, December 17, 2010
Cleft in Two
ANTONIO
Sebastian are you?
SEBASTIAN
Fear'st thou that, Antonio?
ANTONIO
How have you made division of yourself?
An apple, cleft in two, is not more twin
Than these two creatures. Which is Sebastian?
OLIVIA
Most wonderful!
Sebastian are you?
SEBASTIAN
Fear'st thou that, Antonio?
ANTONIO
How have you made division of yourself?
An apple, cleft in two, is not more twin
Than these two creatures. Which is Sebastian?
OLIVIA
Most wonderful!
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
Sigils
Just a way to keep tabs on my sigils research. I found a good site or two on sigil magick -- this is one brief intro (good):
http://www.mookychick.co.uk/spirit/magical_sigils.php
edit:
http://www.donaldtyson.com/sigil.html
"Many of those who practice this ancient and honorable art believe that merely by gazing overlong at demonic sigils, the demons themselves will be attracted, and will cause trouble or bad luck in the life of the person who disturbs them. There may be some truth in this folklore. I found that during the period when I was devoting intense study to the sigils of the Goetia, I began to see them in my dreams and was subject to nightmares in which the sigils themselves writhed and twisted as though alive. This was disturbing enough to cause me to suspend my research, at that time."
www.apolo.net/Classes/Sigils/sigil1_pres.pdf
http://www.mookychick.co.uk/spirit/magical_sigils.php
edit:
http://www.donaldtyson.com/sigil.html
"Many of those who practice this ancient and honorable art believe that merely by gazing overlong at demonic sigils, the demons themselves will be attracted, and will cause trouble or bad luck in the life of the person who disturbs them. There may be some truth in this folklore. I found that during the period when I was devoting intense study to the sigils of the Goetia, I began to see them in my dreams and was subject to nightmares in which the sigils themselves writhed and twisted as though alive. This was disturbing enough to cause me to suspend my research, at that time."
www.apolo.net/Classes/Sigils/sigil1_pres.pdf
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