Mercola on Foods to Avoid

I thought this was an interesting list.

Shaggy, Angel

"You were there through my incarceration." "You must be sent from up above."

This hit song is actually all about the vital body, aka the light body, the etheric double, the linga sarira.

Terry Jacks, If You Go Away

Video Commentary on Illumination

I made this video a few weeks ago -- I made two other illumination videos at the same time, but I have not posted them yet.

Summing Up '09 -- Looking Forward to '10

The end of my 9 month spiritual journey has come. It started back in March. What did I learn/do this year? This year was a very good, very educational year. I spent 3 months listening to Manly P. Hall's lectures, I met Jason and Tracy -- two highly spiritual and very inspirational people. I read Blavatsky and Hall's work -- and together with John Gordon's books, and perhaps a dash of Robert Lawlor (that's all I can think of at the moment), put together what I've come to call a "do-it-yourself illumination kit." I discovered fish-head soup -- very restorative stuff -- and in the fall of this year I went off of "regular" meat and eat only Halal meat now (when it comes to meat, once you go blood-free, it's difficult and highly inadvisable to go back). I also discovered the aura of trees this year -- that was way back in ... April. I spent the entire summer under trees in the park near my house.

What does 2010 have in store? I'm living 9 months at a time because I have a feeling 9 months brings significant and inevitable changes, so why fight the flow? 2010, if I were to truly reveal my secret goals/desires is all about illumination -- not so much discovering the science, theology, and philosophy behind it (which is what I've been doing for the past 9 months), but the actual and practical experience of it. That's my new goal. I think it's an achievable goal because I think I have a very good idea as to how it's actually achieved. The only thing preventing me from achieving it in 2010 is my own karma, which I have no control over because my karma for this life is entirely dependent on my conduct in all my previous existences. I'm rather nervous about my new goal -- it involves letting go of the "Tony" incarnation, i.e., seeing it for the illusion that it really is, and, rather, using the Tony incarnation as a means to return to spiritual consciousness -- kind of like Dante stepped on the back of some beastly creature in order to get out of the Inferno.

Robert Frost Gets It Right

The Trial by Existence

By Robert Frost

1874-1963

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Even the bravest that are slain
Shall not dissemble their surprise
On waking to find valor reign,
Even as on earth, in paradise;
And where they sought without the sword
Wide fields of asphodel fore'er,
To find that the utmost reward
Of daring should be still to dare.
The light of heaven falls whole and white
And is not shattered into dyes,
The light for ever is morning light;
The hills are verdured pasture-wise;
The angel hosts with freshness go,
And seek with laughter what to brave;--
And binding all is the hushed snow
Of the far-distant breaking wave.
And from a cliff-top is proclaimed
The gathering of the souls for birth,
The trial by existence named,
The obscuration upon earth.
And the slant spirits trooping by
In streams and cross- and counter-streams
Can but give ear to that sweet cry
For its suggestion of what dreams!
And the more loitering are turned
To view once more the sacrifice
Of those who for some good discerned
Will gladly give up paradise.
And a white shimmering concourse rolls
Toward the throne to witness there
The speeding of devoted souls
Which God makes his especial care.
And none are taken but who will,
Having first heard the life read out
That opens earthward, good and ill,
Beyond the shadow of a doubt;
And very beautifully God limns,
And tenderly, life's little dream,
But naught extenuates or dims,
Setting the thing that is supreme.
Nor is there wanting in the press
Some spirit to stand simply forth,
Heroic in its nakedness,
Against the uttermost of earth.
The tale of earth's unhonored things
Sounds nobler there than 'neath the sun;
And the mind whirls and the heart sings,
And a shout greets the daring one.
But always God speaks at the end:
'One thought in agony of strife
The bravest would have by for friend,
The memory that he chose the life;
But the pure fate to which you go
Admits no memory of choice,
Or the woe were not earthly woe
To which you give the assenting voice.'
And so the choice must be again,
But the last choice is still the same;
And the awe passes wonder then,
And a hush falls for all acclaim.
And God has taken a flower of gold
And broken it, and used therefrom
The mystic link to bind and hold
Spirit to matter till death come.
'Tis of the essence of life here,
Though we choose greatly, still to lack
The lasting memory at all clear,
That life has for us on the wrack
Nothing but what we somehow chose;
Thus are we wholly stripped of pride
In the pain that has but one close,
Bearing it crushed and mystified.

Boggs

Andy Dufraisne has several nasty experiences with Boggs and the "sisters". Living with Ceci's daughter, and even Ceci's energy, "boggs" me down every night. I would say it's exactly like Andy's experience of getting repeatedly "Bogged". Yeah, it's probably equally as painful. As I said, it's time for me to break away. At the end of the movie Andy spent two months in the hole before he decided to break away to "Saywatenay" or whatever. He needed that experience to push him over the edge, to make finally decide to "just say no". There is nothing stopping me anymore, I've learned from Jason and Tracy to let the suffering and the pain go -- it's not inside me anymore. So, if there is a "law of attraction" I should lose them -- Ceci and her daughter -- very soon. My intuition tells me I still have some more hell to go to -- like the fit I had this morning after spending the night in Ceci's energy. Just watch the first minute, below, every night, and think of me. I am definitely in need of some "outdoor detail". But, sleeping in the park in sub-zero temperatures, as I'm currently doing, doesn't quite cut it.

Breaking Away

It's high time for me to break away.

I Hope