Mercola on Foods to Avoid

I thought this was an interesting list.

Shaggy, Angel

"You were there through my incarceration." "You must be sent from up above."

This hit song is actually all about the vital body, aka the light body, the etheric double, the linga sarira.

Terry Jacks, If You Go Away

Video Commentary on Illumination

I made this video a few weeks ago -- I made two other illumination videos at the same time, but I have not posted them yet.

Summing Up '09 -- Looking Forward to '10

The end of my 9 month spiritual journey has come. It started back in March. What did I learn/do this year? This year was a very good, very educational year. I spent 3 months listening to Manly P. Hall's lectures, I met Jason and Tracy -- two highly spiritual and very inspirational people. I read Blavatsky and Hall's work -- and together with John Gordon's books, and perhaps a dash of Robert Lawlor (that's all I can think of at the moment), put together what I've come to call a "do-it-yourself illumination kit." I discovered fish-head soup -- very restorative stuff -- and in the fall of this year I went off of "regular" meat and eat only Halal meat now (when it comes to meat, once you go blood-free, it's difficult and highly inadvisable to go back). I also discovered the aura of trees this year -- that was way back in ... April. I spent the entire summer under trees in the park near my house.

What does 2010 have in store? I'm living 9 months at a time because I have a feeling 9 months brings significant and inevitable changes, so why fight the flow? 2010, if I were to truly reveal my secret goals/desires is all about illumination -- not so much discovering the science, theology, and philosophy behind it (which is what I've been doing for the past 9 months), but the actual and practical experience of it. That's my new goal. I think it's an achievable goal because I think I have a very good idea as to how it's actually achieved. The only thing preventing me from achieving it in 2010 is my own karma, which I have no control over because my karma for this life is entirely dependent on my conduct in all my previous existences. I'm rather nervous about my new goal -- it involves letting go of the "Tony" incarnation, i.e., seeing it for the illusion that it really is, and, rather, using the Tony incarnation as a means to return to spiritual consciousness -- kind of like Dante stepped on the back of some beastly creature in order to get out of the Inferno.

Robert Frost Gets It Right

The Trial by Existence

By Robert Frost

1874-1963

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Even the bravest that are slain
Shall not dissemble their surprise
On waking to find valor reign,
Even as on earth, in paradise;
And where they sought without the sword
Wide fields of asphodel fore'er,
To find that the utmost reward
Of daring should be still to dare.
The light of heaven falls whole and white
And is not shattered into dyes,
The light for ever is morning light;
The hills are verdured pasture-wise;
The angel hosts with freshness go,
And seek with laughter what to brave;--
And binding all is the hushed snow
Of the far-distant breaking wave.
And from a cliff-top is proclaimed
The gathering of the souls for birth,
The trial by existence named,
The obscuration upon earth.
And the slant spirits trooping by
In streams and cross- and counter-streams
Can but give ear to that sweet cry
For its suggestion of what dreams!
And the more loitering are turned
To view once more the sacrifice
Of those who for some good discerned
Will gladly give up paradise.
And a white shimmering concourse rolls
Toward the throne to witness there
The speeding of devoted souls
Which God makes his especial care.
And none are taken but who will,
Having first heard the life read out
That opens earthward, good and ill,
Beyond the shadow of a doubt;
And very beautifully God limns,
And tenderly, life's little dream,
But naught extenuates or dims,
Setting the thing that is supreme.
Nor is there wanting in the press
Some spirit to stand simply forth,
Heroic in its nakedness,
Against the uttermost of earth.
The tale of earth's unhonored things
Sounds nobler there than 'neath the sun;
And the mind whirls and the heart sings,
And a shout greets the daring one.
But always God speaks at the end:
'One thought in agony of strife
The bravest would have by for friend,
The memory that he chose the life;
But the pure fate to which you go
Admits no memory of choice,
Or the woe were not earthly woe
To which you give the assenting voice.'
And so the choice must be again,
But the last choice is still the same;
And the awe passes wonder then,
And a hush falls for all acclaim.
And God has taken a flower of gold
And broken it, and used therefrom
The mystic link to bind and hold
Spirit to matter till death come.
'Tis of the essence of life here,
Though we choose greatly, still to lack
The lasting memory at all clear,
That life has for us on the wrack
Nothing but what we somehow chose;
Thus are we wholly stripped of pride
In the pain that has but one close,
Bearing it crushed and mystified.

Boggs

Andy Dufraisne has several nasty experiences with Boggs and the "sisters". Living with Ceci's daughter, and even Ceci's energy, "boggs" me down every night. I would say it's exactly like Andy's experience of getting repeatedly "Bogged". Yeah, it's probably equally as painful. As I said, it's time for me to break away. At the end of the movie Andy spent two months in the hole before he decided to break away to "Saywatenay" or whatever. He needed that experience to push him over the edge, to make finally decide to "just say no". There is nothing stopping me anymore, I've learned from Jason and Tracy to let the suffering and the pain go -- it's not inside me anymore. So, if there is a "law of attraction" I should lose them -- Ceci and her daughter -- very soon. My intuition tells me I still have some more hell to go to -- like the fit I had this morning after spending the night in Ceci's energy. Just watch the first minute, below, every night, and think of me. I am definitely in need of some "outdoor detail". But, sleeping in the park in sub-zero temperatures, as I'm currently doing, doesn't quite cut it.

Breaking Away

It's high time for me to break away.

I Hope

Holy Hell

Sorry for the swearing but Holy Hell.

It's a little like being eaten alive.

Holy. Hell. On. Earth.

Honesty, by Billy Joel

Honesty, by Billy Joel -- a song I've been listening to lately. Every word is true.

Truman is losing his f*&@ing mind.

Truman, Where Are You?

The Verdict?

I saw an energy psychologist last week -- at great expense, and against my own intuition. I'm not sure what prompted me to go, I more or less trusted Jason's judgment, because he's helped me before. I also was in a desperate state.

The long and short of it was that I saw her for about 6 straight hours, in which she did her "channeling" which I felt very uneasy about. In any case, the general verdict was that I am, in fact, addicted to suffering -- there are chemicals that get released in the body under any psychological state that can become addictive.

I have struggled with this for the past few days. I always prided myself that I am not, even though depressed, dependent on drugs or alcohol. But I never really seriously considered whether I might be addicted to misery or suffering or pain. I must admit, at the moment, that it might explain matters. But I can't help thinking, also, that it is ridiculous. There is also the issue that animal protein contains the suffering of the slaughtered animals and therefore , seeing that I'm empathic in the first place, I might be picking up in a big way the animal's energy, because I do eat a heck of a lot of animal protein. I find it to be grounding.

So, the verdict, as stated, might be that I'm addicted to suffering, and that fact is what is preventing me from making all kinds of growth, spiritual and otherwise. In that case, the therapist said I must find for myself other avenues, besides suffering and torment, that might lead me to illumination because, she assures me, I will not succeed in the manner I've been trying. She claimed that she opened my mind up during the session to contemplating other ways of growth, that is, she consulted with my subconscious mind and reprogrammed it.

So, if I am addicted to suffering, the solutions may be apparent. Firstly, I can use my subliminals to help reprogram my mind by writing, say "I am no longer addicted to suffering." and watch what happens. I can also rely on Tracy's (the psychologist's) own reprogramming. I can also watch my meat intake, which seems to exacerbate my problem. Other than that, I think I'll just have to wait and see how things go the next few days.

Mephistopheles. How closely linked are Luck and Merit,
Is something fools have never known.
Had they the Wise Man's Stone, I swear it,
There'd be no Wise Man for the Stone.

Dominus Illuminatio Mea

That's the motto for Oxford University -- isn't it a coincidence that I was born in the year of the ox? The motto is taken from the 27th Psalm. It's usually translated as "The Lord is my light."

Jay's Mantra

This is a mantra given to me by Jason. It has been surprisingly helpful for me, so I thought I would share it.

"From the God spark of 100% pure love and light that I am, I connect to source and give thanks and ask that all aspects of my being in all of my bodies and all dimensions, and all beings connected to me in all my bodies and all dimensions, be changed over to 100% pure love and light with no dark influence in godspeed. I take it that my requests are being answered and I thank you very much for your help."

I tend to read this in silence -- after reading that all speech actually can attract various entities into the energy field.

Perspective Drawing

Perspective drawing is based on the non-Euclidean "discovery" that all parallel lines actually do meet if extended far enough, in contrast to Euclid's famous fifth axiom.

Perspective is probably the most important aspect of art -- the difference between a childhood drawing and an adult drawing is the addition of perspective. Actually perspective is a difficult thing apparently to grasp. It took me four years, from the time I started doodle drawings in mid-2005 to now, late 2009, to gain a beginning understanding of perspective drawing. I think part of the reason was that I didn't understand or appreciate the explanations in most drawing texts. Actually, I'm sure I could have learned perspective-drawing when I was in grade 1 because I remember being very interested in drawing at the time and rummaging through all the drawing books in the school library -- but none, alas, contained anything informative on perspective-drawing. I started to gain my own grasp of perspective drawing just this past week when I noticed that the kitchen tiles next to where I was sitting were apparently much longer than the tiles just a few feet from me; and the tiles closer to me were also apparently much wider apart than those at a distance. That lead me to try to mimic the floor on the page in such a way the tiles further from me took up progressively less room on the page (see the floor on the drawing below).






















I think that perspective-drawing is very important for the experience of "illumination" of the mind -- the subject this blog has come to be about. The reason being that it allows the mind to see that the senses -- well, sight particularly -- reveal nothing as it actually is -- the distortions of perception come glaring through when the mind is made to reproduce perception through visual art. The mind realizes that, given the fact that it is able to apprehend the illusion of visual perception, it must partake, at least in part, of a reality higher than the one to which it is normally exposed as a result of sensory experience; otherwise it could never perceive the illusion as illusion in the first place -- it would simply be stuck in that reality. This is the beginning of illumination.

If we look again at the drawing of the floor above, we notice that the horizontal lines, although they get closer together as they move up the page, still remain horizontal to each other. In contrast, the more vertical lines, constituting the sides of the tiles, actually all converge to a single, though not delineated, point. This type of drawing is called one-point perspective because eventually one set of lines converges to one point -- perhaps it should more properly be called one-vanishing-point perspective because the point is termed the vanishing point.

Most art books when discussing perspective do not show the horizontal lines as getting progressively closer together as I did -- I think it's a good idea, though, to draw these lines as gradually converging in order to get an initial understanding of perspective-drawing. Practiced artists do not draw horizontal lines at all, their grid consisting only of a vanishing point and a series of lines converging to that point. I will illustrate this with three drawings of "boxes" below. Note that the front of each box (and the back as well) consists solely of horizontal and vertical lines, but the lines joining front to back all converge to one point, the vanishing point.

I might reiterate that in one-point perspective the vertical and horizontal lines exhibit "zero-point perspective", in other words they do not converge to any vanishing point but remain forever parallel, as per Euclidean geometry. Only the lines extending into the page exhibit perspective (in one-point perspective drawings), and therefore, only they converge to a vanishing point. A box or cube consists of three sets of parallell lines, the horizontal, the vertical, and those extending into the page. Again, in one-point perspective only the latter converge to a single point. This next drawing is also one-point perspective but without grid lines. In this case several cubes take up the page; the one beneath that is the same drawing, with one cube added, but with the grid lines included.

You can see in the picture with the grid lines that the sides of the cubes moving into the page all converge towards the single vanishing point. In two-point perspective, the boxes are viewed from such an angle that not only the sides but also the 'fronts' of the boxes exhibit perspective. Here are two identical illustrations but with the grid lines drawn in the second. Note that in two-point perspective, the vertical lines are still parallel to each other, i.e., they are not drawn in perspective.

This next picture is two-point perspective with the second vanishing point being well off the page, to the left. In this case, we see that the further one vanishing point is from an object, and the more the other vanishing point is directly behind the object, rather than to its side, the more we approach one-point perspective.

The last picture is three-point perspective, where the final set of lines, the vertical lines, is finally included in the perspective -- such drawings are usually called birds-eye or worms-eye view. The picture below is an example of the latter, i.e. looking up at a really tall 'building'.

M. P. Hall on Aesthetics

"In its truest sense, therefore, aesthetics may be considered a philosophic discipline by which the consciousness of man is equipped to estimate the degree of beauty, the degree of virtue, and the degree of utility inherent in the nature of an object; also the power to discern how these qualities may be increased to ultimate perfection. The first work is, therefore, to establish the nature of beauty in its most comprehensible sense; likewise, the natures of virtue and utility. Before beauty is cognizable, however, in other than its transitory and inconsequential sense, the consciousness of him who would constitute himself its criterion must be elevated to that level of rationality on which the principle of beauty exists dissociated from the clumsy efforts of men to express its qualities. Upon the basis that only the beautiful was capable of recognizing the beautiful, the assumption of the philosophic life was regarded as indispensable to the recognition of the aesthetics of Divinity."

"Beauty, existing independent of form and as a divine principle, is likened to a fountainhead of existence, from which streams of beauty flow forth to permeate and beautify the whole inferior creation. Furthermore, the beauty of the inner nature greatly transcends to the beauty of the outer, for the spiritual essences constituting the supersubstantial man, being more proximate to Cause, partake more fully of the nature of Cause, which is true Beauty. Hence, as Plotinus observes, there are those who "on perceiving the forms of gods or daemons, no longer esteem the fairest of corporeal forms."

"The quest of the truly beautiful is therefore identical with the quest of self, for Self in its perfect and universalized sense -- the all-pervading Consciousness postulated by the sage -- is the perfect source of all beauty and therefore paretakes in perfect measure of all that which is manifested from itself. That this supreme truth was taught by the sacred institutions of antiquity is further evidenced by Plotinus, who continues: "Just as those who penetrate into the holy retreates of sacred mysteries, are first purified, and then divest themselves of their garments, until some one, by such a process, having dismissed every thing foreign from the God, by himself alone, beholds the solitary principel of the universe, sincere, simple, and pure, from which all things depend, and to whose transcendent perfections the eyes of all intelligent natures are directed, as the proper cause of being, life, and intelligence.""

Lectures on Ancient Philosophy (italics mine)

Random Writings on a Bed

Growth, generation, is not a quantity but a quality of being.
Thought is not a quantity but a quality of being.
Emotion is not a quantity but a quality of being.


Objective experiences/sensations are recorded in subjective bodies (surrounding objective body) .


Study, true study, is not the introduction of concepts into the mind but the reception of the mind of that which is greater than it. It is not an active mental process, therefore, but a passive one. Study is not the use of the mind as an active agent . When the mind serves as a channel for truth, the mind approaches illumination.

What is "intrinsic" is what is beyond mind and consequently beyond creation.

The predicament of man is that he is not life nor lifelessness, he is suspended betwixt the two. His "free will", his egoic self, his mind principle, allows him to choose between the two extremes. Almost invariably he chooses death because temporal reality is evident, whereas eternal reality is only imminent.

The mind of man is his only salvation, but also his greatest enemy. The problem is that man is not a mind-being -- he is a universal being, a divine being, a spiritual being. The egoic-consciousness is locked within the principle of mind, the Orphic egg from which Phanes, the universal savior, must burst forth for illumination to occur.

Beauty exists without mind, and mind is a condition of the beautiful.

The mediocre mind believes that it can think its way to knowledge. The disillusioned mind knows that it is properly the servant of the real and so long as it tries to be its arbiter, it will be the slayer of the real.

The mind can receive life, it cannot bestow life.

My lifelong search for perfection has lead me to the conclusion that perfection can never be conceived by the mind, but it can be received by the mind. Perfection, beauty, cannot be comprehended, but it can be apprehended -- this apprehension results in the illumination of the mind, the end of evolution and the creation of the "star man."

It is hopeless for the mind to try to annihilate itself, it can only acknowledge that which is greater than itself.

More Writings Under a Tree

The illuminated one is born out of time, space, and matter -- the trifold womb of nascent spiritual consciousness.

Illumination is the path of mind seeking its own source.

A symbol is always something less than that which it represents. That is why symbols are secondary realities. But symbols are the only things presented to mind in the experience of life, and until only when mind is able to read those symbols is it permitted to approach reality. This reminiscent of "Neo" deciphering the code of the matrix in the movie "The Matrix". The code being, in reality, the intrinsic meaning behind all life experiences. To apperceive meanings rather than to impose conditions is the proper activity of the mind approaching illumination.

Illumination is liberation of the mind. It is the experience whereby mind beholds reality for the first time.

All thought is partial truth. Knowledge is the whole truth.

Knowledge is not thought. Knowledge is fullness.

Mind is the medium between spirit and matter. But, emotion is the medium between mind and matter. Thus we have the fourfold constitution of the universe.

What is God? Who is God? God is absolute fullness -- something the mind cannot conceive. The mind itself is a condition of fullness and cannot give rise to, create, or conceive of, something greater than itself.

The Razor's Edge

The Razor’s Edge is a book by W. Somerset Maugham published in 1944. Its epigraph reads, "The sharp edge of a razor is difficult to pass over; thus the wise say the path to Salvation is hard." —Katha-Upanishad.

The Razor’s Edge tells the story of an American, Larry Darrell, who, traumatized by his experiences as a fighter pilot in World War I, decides to search for some transcendent meaning in his life. The novel is supposed to be based on the life of William R. Lewis.[citation needed]
The story begins through the eyes of Larry’s friends and acquaintances as they witness his personality change after the War. His rejection of conventional life and search for meaningful experience allows him to thrive while the more materialistic characters suffer reversals of fortune. The book was twice adapted into film, first in 1946 starring Tyrone Power and Gene Tierney, and Herbert Marshall as Maugham, and then a 1984 contemporary adaptation starring Bill Murray, with Tibet replacing India as the place of Larry’s enlightenment (the monastery to which Larry travels in the 1984 movie adaptation is in Ladakh, an Indian-ruled region sometimes called "Little Tibet").[1]

From Wikipedia.org

Random Writings on a Couch

I do feel, though much hell is on its way, that illumination is at hand. Does that sound like a contradiction? Perhaps it is. But one I make no apologies for. Haven't I said that before?

At the risk of being repetitive -- this is my second blog entry of the day -- on the general subject of illumination:

The point is not to change thought and emotion patterns but rather to understand their meanings -- because the being which is is not a thought-being or an emotion-being but a divine being (i.e., not subject to generation).

Meaning is greater than mind. Meaning gave birth to mind. Mind's only purpose is to redeem matter, first by conditioning it, bringing it under its will, then by being the "channel" for that which is higher than it -- for that which is divine.

The mind must be, therefore, in a receptive, not a conceptive state in order to be illuminated. The mind must receive that which is higher than it in order to be illuminated.

The discipline of salvation is the apprehension of meaning. The apprehension of meaning is the acknowledgement by mind (self) of that which is greater than itself.

The mind is the shaper, the delimiter, and the former.

Thought (the substance of mind) is a condition of consciousness, it is a limiter or a delimiter of existence. Thoughts weave webs, thoughts manipulate things, thoughts bind things, thoughts condition things.

Thought is a bastard child who knows not its father.

The entire purpose of incarnation is illumination -- there is no other purpose.

The "lower nature" spoken of in occultism is that which "points downwards", i.e., it is that aspect of mind that is capable only of creating conditions (opinions) rather than of receiving that which is higher than it (truth).

Thought is absence or incompleteness.

When mind ceases to be a conditioner, that is what is called by the Buddhists "the annhilation of mind."

Knowledge is not thought. Knowledge is what thought receives when its not engaged in its own opinions.

Mind must take on the role of receiver, it must cease trying to make something out of the world.

The literalist will always be the destroyer of the real.

The mind molded and created the body -- thought being the most powerful force in the mundane sphere.

There is naught but meaning and fullness.

Random Writings in a Tent

Beauty is not something that the mind can conceive, it is something that the mind can receive. The experience of beauty, therefore, might be said to be the only time the mind can "relax", i.e., not create its own opinions, forms, ideas, conditions, etc., but rather to be a receptacle of that which is higher than it.

Life works by receiving into itself that which is greater than itself (illumination works the very same way). For example, the body must be receptive to emotions (action), the emotions to mind (discipline), and the mind to God (illumination).

The universe, creation, is a hierarchical, a cascading, phenomenon.

Thoughts are forms -- energy-forms -- that affect self and surroundings. Thought is a higher form of energy than emotion. Neither thoughts nor emotions, however, are divine realities but, along with the physical body, are part of the trifold mundane sphere.

The notion of "discipline" bears witness that the rational nature must subdue the irrational nature. It is not enough to love but to love wisely.

Is the mind a means or an end? Is it a tool of understanding reality, or is it the arbiter of reality?


Mind cannot be annihilated (as per the Eastern doctrine of mind-annihilation), it can only be directed.

For the mind to be illuminated, it must cease to create anything for itself -- only then can it surrender to that which is greater than itself. I don't see another way than through suffering for this to take place -- suffering being, therefore, the only apparent path to illumination.

Desire, emotion, cannot appreciate meaning -- only mind can appreciate meaning. Desire is consciousness locked in generation. Desire must be overcome, and that is, apparently, the role of suffering.

The mind is by its nature a conditioner, a limiter, or a delimiter. The mind cannot create freedom. The mind cannot conceive (i.e., give birth to) freedom. The mind is nothing more than a maker of conditions.

Symbols are impenetrable to the undiscerning.

That which is divine is that which is not subject to generation.

Freedom is not a condition. Freedom is not something, therefore, that anybody can give to you, it. Freedom is a conditionless condition.

The absence of conditions is not void, but fullness (and death is life and life is death). I imagine that this is the major confusion of existence and therefore the major impediment to growth and evolution. The prisoners of Shawshank prison (see an earlier blog entry below) were conditioned or "institutionalized" by their captivity (physical form), and the character "Red" and others were literally afraid of being liberated. That is the problem of existence and the cause of reincarnation.
It is not annihilation of the mind which is important, but the opening up of the mind to that which is greater than it. The same is true of the body -- when the body is no longer open to that which is greater than it (immediately, prana and the conditions of prana), the body dies.

There are only two motions of mind, away from its source and towards its source.

Realization is a coming out of form rather than an attachment to form.

Man does not make himself a god, man realizes his own godliness.

In a universe of meaning, all suffering, pain, and misery are a means to an end.

Karma is not a negative law. It is a beneficent law, without karma there is no chance of salvation.

All motion (inertial motion) is illusion. The same is true of space as we experience it -- that is, as intervals between objects. This space does not actually exist in reality. In reality all things exist in the same place, the only intervals being those of quality, not quantity. Quantity, diversity, is pure illusion. I suspect that numbers are, in fact, not quantities, even though we use them to tabulate quantities -- numbers are, rather, qualities, i.e. the number one representing an entirely different quality than the number two, and the number three representing a separate quality altogether, and so on. I have not completely worked out this notion in my head but it does, I believe, represent a significant step in my understanding of number. Number systems, like the binary system, the decimal system, the hexadecimal system, the duodecimal system, the sexagesimal system, represent different qualities of tabulation -- testifying to the fact that numbers are not quantitative, but qualitative phenomena. Numbers we seem, therefore, to "abuse" by using them to count, and tabulate, i.e., to create one-to-one correspondences between numbers and objects. But numbers are not objects! Numbers are not things! They must, therefore, intrinsically be qualities. Numbers first arose from cosmological differentiation -- which, as I just pointed out, was qualitative and not quantitative.

All my life I felt as though I was waiting to be born. "Did you ever feel like your life was building towards something, Marlon?" asked Truman. All my life I have been waiting patiently for that something. A birthing process is not a conscious endeavor -- it is an unfolding of consciousness.

Happiness that is not permanent is not happiness but a latent form of sadness. It is sleeping sadness.

I wrote these "random writings" as a way to make further sense of the writings of Manly P Hall on pagan metaphysics (Lectures on Ancient Philosophy). His "Lectures" and his "Secrets Teachings" together constitute what I might term a do-it-yourself illumination kit, if such could be imagined. In any case, my understanding has not quite approached illumination. I wish to add something that I continue to have difficulty working out in my head, and that I don't believe Manly P Hall fully explained or explored.

Hall's "Lectures" contains a chapter on symbolism and his "Secret Teachings" he referred to as "Symbolical Philosophy" -- both of these facts signifying the importance he placed on understanding symbols in the process of education and illumination. Reading symbols, understanding symbols, is the key to illumination. But, the word symbol must include all phenomenal/objective experience. When you open your eyes or direct your vision anywhere, you are seeing naught but symbols pointing to higher realities -- and to not see those symbols as symbols is to be trapped in mundane reality. Similarly for all events in your life.

Perhaps more importantly, a proper understanding of symbols gives rise to the realization that only meaning -- and not meaninglessness -- exists in the universe. This is quite different from the education modern man receives whose tenet is that there is no meaning apart from phenomena (the sensory/objective world that science limits itself to), and that phenomena have no intrinsic meaning. This tenet (just like the Darwinian theory that we arose from apes) is the exact opposite of the truth!

The mind is a conditioner, and therefore, it does not necessarily want to see meaning (which is higher than itself) in things but rather to impose its own structures and conditions (opinions) on things. That is where the mind trades in its eternal life for cyclical death (reincarnation).

How Life Doth Sucketh

Here's an excerpt from The Occult Anatomy of Man, a book I'd like to get my hands on -- it's only 6$ but not available in Nazi Germany, oops, I mean the corporate state of Canada -- and shipping from States is more expensive than the book, seems perfectly reasoable to me! That and several other books of reasonable price are currently unavailable to me because of exhorbitant shipping costs.

Movies that Depict Me

Slumdog Millionaire, The Truman Show, and The Shawshank Redemption are three movies that -- from a symbolic perspective -- epitomize my life up till now. Also, the Star Trek TNG episode "Journey's End" resonates with my own experience of this life.

The Truman Show begins with Truman standing under the number "36" -- presumably signifying the age of Truman's awakening, and the age, therefore, that one is expected -- at least from the Gnostic perspective -- to awaken from the unreality of physical existence. Well, I just turned 36 a month ago ... Is this my year, my time, for awakening?

The Shawshank Redemption presents a falsely accused man spending 20 years in imprisonment. Well, it's been 20 years since I first moved to Montreal (Mon-treal, "my trial") and my saga of depression began. Again, is it my time now, after 20 years of imprisonment, to finally break from the "temple of doom" (to borrow the title of another movie).? The movie is not, as often touted, primarily about a friendship between two men in prison -- it's about imprisonment in form, and the resultant "insitutionalisation" that occurs where the incarnating spirit not only forgets its own divinity but fears release from its self-imposed prison.

Slumdog Millionaire is a symbolic rehashing of the Odyssey of Homer, the ageold quest of 'everyman' in search of himself. Jamal, the Odysseus character, is accused in the film of being "too truthful" -- something I've been accused of on more than one occasion. He also found and lost "Isis" (the Goddess of a Thousand Names, and called "Latika" in the film) several times in the movie -- I've found her once, and lost her once ("Isis" or as Jamal calls her "the most beautiful woman in the world", is the etheric presence in the aura of the indivdual who has purified his etheric body enough to sense her perenial presence). The Slumdog is also a poor beggar boy, and Odysseus himself comes home to Penelope (Isis) a beggar -- and never have I known "destitution" as now, and the past three years, of my life. It appears I'm ready to meet Isis again!

Each of the above movies involves an individual trapped in a "world" where he definitely wants to escape from and consequently the theme of all three is freedom, liberation (esoterically spiritual liberation). The Demiurgus god, i.e., the builder of form or the god that imprisons spirit in matter, is present in Shawshank as the Warden, in Slumdog as the gameshow host, in Truman Show, as the "Christof," the show's director.

Journey's End is apparently based loosely on the life of Mohammed, the prophet of Islam, but also reflects my own experiences of being a very unhappy, depressed young man who eventually stumbles onto illumination, the latter being the hope and not the reality in my case.

I know that each of these movies, and countless other productions, are meant to signify the path to and attainment of illumination -- another reason why I believe my time for the "second birth" is almost at hand. How many people watch Slumdog or Truman and see or understand the Gnostic overtones? How many people realize that neither Gnosticism or any other truly pagan 'theosophy' is either evil or to be shunned but is rather the path to illumination, the unconscious path we're all treading?

Hall, Lectures on Ancient Philosophy

Since learning from Manly P. Hall and others of the reality of reincarnation, I have often wondered why I chose to incarnate at this time -- i.e., in such a materialist and therefore decadant age. One reason seems to be the writings and wisdom of Manly P. Hall himself. As one reviewer has said, Hall explains the obscure allegories, mythologies, and ideas of the Secret Doctrine, or the Occult Western Tradition, in a way that someone seeking a genuine understanding of the nature of him/herself and of the universe can truly understand. When has humanity ever had such a clear expositor of the sublime truths of philosophy, theology, and science? He has truly been a very modern light in the darkness of human understanding.

I have not read the entire book, but felt compelled, this Sat. morning, to write a brief review. The book is essential reading next to Hall's Secret Teachings (an improper title compared to its original title: "An Encyclopedic Outline of Ancient Rosicrucian, Freemasonic ... etc., etc." -- because it really is more of an encyclopedia, with each chapter being an independent 'window' into the most precious, though recondite, wisdom of the human family).

The first 4 chapters (preceded by the most wonderful preface critiqing modern materialist values) provide the foundation of the book's metaphysical outlook, namely what Hall refers to as "the dot, the line, and the circle" -- representing the (source) God, the angelic beings or lesser gods, and finally the world of form (where humanity is 'trapped'). Chapters 2-4 explain each of these in turn.

On a personal note, Chapter 4 -- the Inferior Creation and Its Regent, dealing with the "circle" as the aspect of Self furthest from source (God) -- is my favorite chapter, perhaps of any book, because it perfectly describes life as I have experienced it (more or less, and sadly, as a spiritual being, trapped in form). In any case, the first 4 chapters offers a clear pagan understanding of Deity -- which Hall describes as "a fundamental monotheism manifesting through a complex polytheism" -- and that applies equally to the apparently polytheistic Greeks, as it does to any other ancient culture, as Hall adamantly stresses in this and other of his works.

I cannot do full justice to the book as I have not read it in its entirety but I do know that a solid grasp of chapters 1-4 is essential to an appreciation of occultism, just as it is to an appreciation of the rest of the book. I found chapter 5 (The Annhilation of the Sense of Diversity) to be less inspired, less interesting, than the other chapters and Chapter 10, on Pagan Cosmogony, I have so far found to be somewhat obscure, though I'm still struggling with it. Chapter 7, the Doctrine of Redemption Through Grace, is a scathing attack on Christian theology/morality, which seeks, according to Hall (and me), to bring God down to man rather than to bring man up to God. He also accuses Christianity of being an essentially idolatrous relgion because of its literalist interpretation of scripture and religious teaching. It's only when one appreciates parables, mythologies, allegories, etc. as symbolic of higher principles that one opens one's mind sufficiently to gain a true grasp of reality, and, therefore, of Deity.

Chapter 9 on The Cycle of Necessity, is essential reading on the pagan understanding of reincarnation. Hall has touched on this subject in other works ("Reincarnation") but this chapter is a wonderful addition to those. Hall opens the chapter with a "gauntlet" thrown at modern materialist intellectualism in the form of three pressing and perpetually unanswered questions: "Life is the beginning of what? Love is the fulfillment of what? Death is the end of what?" Materialist philosophy has ever been mum on the subject of a response to these questions.

Unfortunately I cannot comment on the rest of the book, as I have not read the rest of the, in total, 20 chapters -- but I was too enraptured with the first half of the book not to write a review of what I've read so far.

Random Writings Under a Tree

I have been, I suppose, a man ever in search of an education (I think that defines me, my life, up until now -- neither food nor water nor shelter but an education have I searched for).

Education is about more than building mental structures; it is about more than attachment to or fascination with ideas.

I am convinced that a proper education starts with a proper understanding of the nature and essence of Deity or God -- the source of all things; and equally am I convinced that the fundamental problem of human existence at an individual and social level is a lack of proper understanding of God's nature. The man truly in search of an education, therefore, is the man truly in search of God.

God is not the Creator -- that is a lesser god than the one of which I speak. I do not, therefore, speak of Jehovah, Jupiter, Shiva, Osiris, Allah, or any of the other appellations for what the Greeks referred to as the Demiurgus. The Creator god is a "jealous" god, and steals from the source god in order create his forms. The source god is a higher god, an unmanifest, uncreate god that stands "beneath" creation as the dark earth stands beneath the organic life on our planet -- the formless source of all form. (I do not mean "beneath" in a spatial sense; in fact, manifestation happens in a concentric manner, therefore, the source god, though still the "dark earth", stands far outside His creation.)

Idea is the only substance. Forms are images and reflections of substance, and, therefore, they are completely insubstantial.

For the "inertially-trained" mind (conditioned by "physical existence" -- the latter being almost an oxymoron for the idealist), "substance" might be equated to, or related more closely to, form rather than to idea. But, for the one acquainted with reality, idea is the only substance. God is the ideal, and, therefore, the substantial.

Pure substance, and also pure motion (non-inertial motion), we become acquainted with in dream states, under the influence of exogenous DMT-like substances, at death, or upon spiritual illumination, i.e. liberation from the cycle of birth and death.

[Things get a bit hazy here but I thought I would leave it in -- I have to stop writing now: ]

The Ancients spoke of Man as an upside down plant -- referring principally to the central nervous system (the evidence of mind) with its roots in the cranium (the "heavens," supported by Atlas, the highest of the vertebrae of the spinal column) and its main trunk being the spinal cord, with all its branches exiting the vertebral foramen. The upside down analogy can be carried farther. For, as implied, we do not experience motion, but only its reflection, while living in the physical sphere -- likewise we do not experience substance, but only its refection. This brings us to the great forces of "being" -- involution (manifestation) and evolution (demanifestation or return to source).

In the upside down world that which is up must eventually come down (the world we inhabit). But, in the spirit world that which involves itself in creation ("goes down") must eventually evolve itself out of creation ("go back up").

That which is whole is that which is number.

I thought this on abike, not under a tree: Knowledge is not knowledge unless it is holistic -- or rather wholistic -- i.e. knowledge of the whole. At least part of me is convinced that partial knowledge, therefore, has another name, ignorance.

J. S. Gordon, Theosophist

This article, which I actually haven't read in its entirety, contains enough flashes of brilliance to explain why Gordon has become one of my favorite authors. His writing is at times unclear or opaque -- but not quite as hard to follow as the founder of the Theosophical Society (Blavatsky).

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Truman Show

Why the hell would somebody make a movie about my life and call it the "True Man" show? Tick Tock Tick Tock ... And the fake world keeps turning, and the True Man waits for some kind of sign, or some kind of indication that he's fully committed to reality and fully uncommitted, therefore, to unreality. And if it is his chance at full illumination in this lifetime, then why does he feel (like the Father CRC in the "Chemical Marriage"?) so undeserving?

And the True Man says, "Mr., you're going to the top of this mountain, broken legs and all." I found part 3 -- where Lauren (Isis) says "It's just a show Truman!" -- to be very moving; it reminded me of The Slumdog Millionaire, when the game show host (i.e., the Demiurgus) yells "It's my show!" The entire movie (like parts 5 and 7), however, is -- I humbly offer -- worth seeing many times -- in spite of the "predictive programming" aspect of the film (your life on camera, no privacy), it is still about as profound as cinema can get. Part 8 is perhaps where I'm at right now -- weathering the damn storm. That's a pretty bold statement -- the courage it takes to break from unreality takes about 1000 lifetimes to muster. Am I there yet? I would have to be more self-assured than I am to assume so. Maybe somewhere between part 5 and part 8.

Part 9, the "Creator" (again, the Demiurgus) says "Listen Truman, there's no more truth in the world out there than in the world I created for you." That's the giveaway line of the whole movie.

"Splitting" the Atom

Ain't this the most disgusting thing you've ever seen in your life? But all necessary to protect freedom, of course. I should mention that M.P. Hall and others I'm reading (John Gordon, Egypt Child of Atlantis), write that there is no way that nuclear "fission" actually involves the splitting of an atom -- such a release of energy would likely, they say, take apart the whole solar system, if not the entire galaxy. I'm not quite sure if they say exactly what "nuclear explosions" are, like A-bombs, but Gordon, I believe, talks about them as a stretching or distorting of atomic structure with a resultant "snapping back" into place of that structure. M.P. Hall speaks of "splitting the atom" in his lectures, but I can't remember exactly his explanation for explosions of the type in the video.

The most important thing being, however, that, as mentioned in previous entry, the real "splitting of the atom" is the complete spiritualization of matter made possible by the activation of kundalini energy in man -- and apparently in no other creature. The "atom" of modern science is seen by theosophists as the smallest unit of life, i.e., the biological "cell" of modern science -- life, because, it is the smallest example (perhaps) of matter being impregnated by spirit. This spirit is not released until the end of evolution -- the human being.

Also, NB, the "atom" as described by the ancients (famously Democritus), was never meant to describe simply the smallest units of matter, but rather the structure of the universe from the very small to the very large. "Atom" therefore is really akin to "monad" -- a difficult word to define precisely, but is, at least, an indivisible "wholeness". The monad is one of the most important concepts in occultism because the universe consists of nothing but monads within monads (within monads, etc.) -- whence the doctrine "as above, so below". Therefore, the galaxy is a monad/atom, the solar system is a monad/atom, the earth is a monad/atom, the human being is a monad/atom, the organs of the body are monads/atoms, the cell is a monad/atom, the "atom" of modern science is a monad.

The Nature of Space vs. Matter

What we're taught about the nature of matter and space is pretty much the opposite of the truth. Space is presented as void (absence) in mainstream physics whereas matter is presented as "presence", as "something", some density at least. But, in occultism the opposite is taught/believed: space is actually infinite density -- that's the reason you can move through it -- there is no "space" between space, i.e. no gap in space, it's infinitely dense. Matter on the other hand is absence, it is "the void", the "hole in space" that ancient myths depicited as being carved out of space with knives or thunderbolts (i.e. thor's thunderbolts and also the knives of ... ancient amerindians I believe). The way you can tell that matter is actually a hole or perforation in space is because you can't move through it -- it is obstruction pure and simple.

If you draw a 2-D simplification of our world on a piece of paper (just draw a big rectangle) -- and within the 2-D world, draw a circle to represent a 2-D simplified being. Draw a line next to the circle and imagine what that "being" will see when it encounters that line in the 2-D world. It will see nothing but an obstruction -- a hole moving from the top of it's world to the bottom (except there is not top or bottom because it's a flat world). Matter is the exact same thing, except in a 3-D world -- it is a perforation in 3-D space (coming, therefore, from a fourth dimension; this very phenomenon is depicted in Star Trek TNG episodes, esp. early seasons -- that show had some very gnostic themes hidden behind the veil of symbolism).

The only reason matter has color, texture, or has any qualities whatsoever that make it accesible to perception is because all matter is impregnated with spirit. Matter that is not impregnated with spirit is simply like a hole in space that has, like most holes, a "drawing in" capacity, and some spirits (like us) fall into it (the fall of man, the original sin) -- finding afterwards that it's impossible to get out of it! The Greeks associated matter symbolically as water, in some analogies at least, and Heraclitus said -- "The dry soul is the wisest." Spirits that get caught in the "hole" must go through evolution in order to finally fully reemerge into the spirit world. This is depicted in the movie "slumdog millionaire" in the first "incarnation" (the first flashback of the movie) when jamal, as a child, falls into the waste pit of the outhouse and is covered from head to foot in sewage, which symbolically is pure matter, which is pure inertia and abbhorent to spirit which is pure motion.

Why am I mentioning all this?

All this to say that the entire purpose of life and evolution is for spirit to fully "redeem" matter (the fallen one) by not only impregnating it, but, through the various steps of evolution, to totally spiritualize it. Only humans have the capacity to totally spiritualize matter -- locked within the base of the spine lies the evolutionary energy -- the serpent power or kundalini -- that, once unleashed, travels up the sushumna nadi (the 6th ventricle of the spinal cord), activating the pituitary body which then sends its "wave-like" energy towards the pineal body and reopens the gate to the spirit world. I don't really recommend premature opening of the pineal gland via LSD or other drugs -- the only way to achieve "nature's end" is to live your many, many lives and pay your karmic debt in full -- once the debt is paid, your sushumna nadi naturally reaches a state of purity, enough for your kundalini power to rise of it's own accord. Along the way of it's rising, NB, it interacts with the peripheral nadi (the ida and pingala) to actually effect a reversal of the direction of spin of every one of your seven major chakras. It is that reversal of direction that, I believe, gives the adepts much of their superphysical powers. Drugs can't pay karmic debt, they can't cause kundalini to rise, and they certainly can't reverse the direction of the spin of the chakras.

The total spiritualization of matter was talked about among Buddhists as the "splitting of the atom" -- yes, they conjectured on atoms just like the Greeks did. For the Buddhists this was the end of all evolution -- the day that matter actually was fully redeemed by coming completely and totally under the jurisdiction of spirit -- in such a way that there was no longer a distinction.

Continuation of Previous

More fleshed out?

I was interested in some of Manly P Hall's claims that the ancient mystery schools used to have very rigorous entry critera that were often cruel, and even deadly. He gives some examples in Secret Teachings but many more in examples in a small booklet I recently read of his (Melchizidek and the Mystery of Fire) of this phenomenon in cultures all around the world. The "adepts" are exceedingly careful with their secrets. The candidates often or at least sometimes lost their lives attempting to be admitted. (Blavatsky gives some amusing anecdotes of theosophists who were accepted as probationers by the hindu mahatmas around the turn of 19th century in her book Raja Yoga -- pretty funny stuff as all of them gave up in a few short months (as I recall it was all).

All this to say that .. how shall I put this ... I believe the entire world system has been made into a kind of probationary school for admission into the mystery school tradition. Birth is application for admission -- albeit unknowning application. The rigors of the admission process are very severe ... mercury/vaccine injection as a baby is harsh enough -- fake education for 18 years is practically impossible to uneducate yourself out of ... bombardment with media/advertising from childhood is also equally as difficult to "awaken" from ... not to mention being raised by parents who are completely sold into the system. All these are trials and tests of initiation, that begin at birth and now at an unconscious level. Only the spiritually pure, those who have gone through the hundreds of lives, and perhaps millions of years, it takes to arrive at total spiritual illumination -- only these pure ones, I say, will pass these rigorous tests and therefore be guaranteed to be "the real deal" and appropriate material for initiation.

Remember the opinion that Atlantis fell because the adepts decided it was "safe" to share their secrets with humanity. That decision saw white magic and occultism turn eventually, not immediately, to black magic and sorcery. A similar phenomenon appears to have happened in ancient Egypt, a highly advanced culture sustaining itself likely for many tens of thousands of years until the corruption began with the introduction of the human pharaoh's in c. 3000 BC. The adepts do not take anymore risks. They have gone completely underground -- the have created out of the world system an unconscious probationary school that only the spiritually "ripe" will even discover, let alone graduate from. The buffer zone between the adepts and the masses consists of the power elite -- the exceptionally vile among us that serve the purpose of keeping us away from the adepts. Although the elite may be selected for their narcissism and lust for power, I don't believe they wield real power, they are just tools of a "higher" sort than the average person. In the movie The Chronicles of Riddick, Judy Dench opens with "Normally evil [a reference to the spiritually unregenerate masses] would be fought with good [the adepts], but in times like these [end of age of Pisces] evil must be fought with another kind of evil [the power elite]." Also note that in that movie the "necromongers" are, I believe, a referene to us -- the masses -- that take other people's souls as I outlined in the previous post.

Also take note of the cyclical nature of history in order to understand my not-so-fleshed-out argument. The key cycle is the Platonic year (25,920 years) which is the time it takes for the Sun to go around its parent star (taking from ideas of John Gordon's -- a theosophist -- "Egypt Child of Atlantis"). At a certain point in this year (the "winter solstice"? cf Gordon's work) a new crop of humans is grown -- same way farmers grow grain. At a certain time in the year it's time to harvest that crop -- which means selecting the "good" souls that have made spiritual advancement, from those who are spiritually unregenerate (the unwashed masses). Whether or not it's harvest time now, it's obvious that most of humanity is being rapidly turned into machines through cellphone/implant technology. The bad crop will be "thrown out" and the good crop raised up into initiation. (wonderful reference to this in the movie The Golden Compass at the very end when the witch says to the only American in the movie -- "There's a war on." "I haven't heard rumor of any war. What's it about." "It's about the ending of all free will -- and you're in it whether you know it or not.") It's very fitting that the majority of the species is being turned into machines because a machine is just a body without spirit. The majority of people believe they are material beings, and therefore, they are becoming exactly what they believe they are.

At the Heart of the Conspiracies

What have I found? Well, I should say, as background that I've lead a fairly miserable existence since the age of about 16 -- 20 years ago -- and felt some understanding/justification for that miserable existence by discovering that "the system" doesn't really want you to be happy, or explore your potential, but, rather, wants to fit you into to a plan that serves no one except the elite.

At the heart of all conspiracies [I had intended to post this on a conspiracy forum], I believe I've found after 3 or 4 past years of searching, is the occult -- pure and simple. By that I mean, in part, the fact -- ridiculed in mainstream society -- that each of us is not a human being, but a spiritual being (spheroidal in shape, and spreading hundreds of feet in every direction, and in which the physical body is suspended). We have, according to theosophy, hinduism, and esoteric buddhism (cf Sinnet's wonderful work "esoteric buddhism") a septenary constitution -- from our highest body -- the Atma, which is immortal and invisible -- to our lowest 'body' the linga sarira -- or etheric double, around which our physical body "accretes" or "sticks to". The physical body is a shadow of the etheric body. The adepts of this world know how to work not with the shadow (the physical) but with the light body (the linga sarira) to ensure very lengthy physical lives -- the average adept living, according to Manly P. Hall, about 1000 or more years. Actually, it's my opinion that the oldest living adept is probably in the range of about 50-60,000 years old. Between the linga sarira and the Atma lies various aspects of the mind body and the emotion body -- but, nota bene, neither our emotions nor our thoughts are experienced within our physical body, but rather are projected onto them from the surrounding bodies. The organ of the liver is the receiver of emotions, the heart, the receiver of the higher spirit (Atma) energy, and the brain the receiver of thoughts.

The point of life is not to extend physical existence -- because, actually, the only thing that can be described as true death in the universe is physical existence. To be born into the physical world is to die in the truest sense of the word, said Plato -- and the physical body is the sepulcher of the soul. The average human does not understand this, but rather gets caught up in physical existence. From this situation, we have the phenomenon of reincarnation -- where the higher principles (the highest three being the Atma, the buddhic sheath, and the higher mind) continuously create new physical bodies until finally the "person" discovers its own true nature, as did people like Christ, Buddha, Mohammed, Pythagorus, Apollunius of Tyana, etc. Until spiritual illumination is achieved, reincarnation continues -- on average a spirit reincarnates in about 800 bodies prior to illumination taking place. Also, nota bene, there is considerable time interval between lives -- on average 1500-2000 years (the time it takes the emotion body and the mind body to dissolve back into the emotion and mind bodies of the Earth itself). Let's take a mean then, of about 1750 years for a physical life plus the time between physical lives -- that makes for about 1.5 million years for illumination to take place. These are not my numbers -- I'm following the teachings of Hall, Theosophy, and esoteric religion.

There are many Hollywood (an almost purely Gnostic outfit) movies that depict in symbolic form, the process of reincarnation and ultimate spiritual illumination. The "Slumdog Millionaire" is a classic and recent example -- the movie "Paycheck" with Ben Affleck is also about the same theme -- the movie "What Dreams May Come" is as close as Hollywood has ever gotten to spelling out the phenomenon of the after life. If you know how to read symbolism, then almost any Hollywood movie can be found, in it's subthemes and subplots and subtext, to be blatantly gnostic, by which I mean, occult/esoteric. Of course, movies like Truman Show, and Matrix are also entirely Gnostic works.

The troubles with being a human that gets caught up in physical existence are manifold. How shall I explain -- the explanation is important because it lies at or close to the heart of why conspiracies exist. Although the Atma, the buddhic sheath and the higher mind are not subject to contamination of any kind, the lower bodies, particularly the linga sarira and emotion body, are subject to contamination. It is, in part, this possibility of contamination, that has caused the esoteric secrets as to the nature of each of us, to become hermetically sealed. The linga sarira has a natural ability to clean itself or detoxify and it does this through the pores of the skin. Everybody is constantly detoxifying etherically through their pores, but often this "invisible perspiration" is so intense that the adepts have found it is better to completely avoid human society altogether (particularly societies like we have, based on the ingestion of highly toxic foodstuffs like wheat-based grains and pasteurized dairy, and sugar, sugar, and ... I think I forgot something ... oh yeah, sugar!). But, N.B., the source of contamination is not simply the invisible perspiration, but also the fact that when a human dies (a non-illuminated human) the emotion body breaks off from the physical and typically remains on the physical plane of existence, seeking out the vital energies of living humans. Said emotion bodies are called "kama rupas" in sanskrit. They are the cause of, in my opinion, almost all physical death in the world -- ironically it is our desire to maintain physical existence that kills us. Keep in mind that compared to other mammals, we have an incredibly long growth-stage -- ave.18 years -- which should mean that we should also have an incredibly long lifespan, but we don't -- Manly P. Hall has stated that the normal lifespan of a human should be at least a few hundred years, given the length of childhood. The kama rupas take several decades to wreak their finally destruction of the living because the etheric double comes with a natural layer of protection around it -- but this protection is gradually destroyed by grains, coffee, sugar, and alcohol, and various other phenomena, like the recent introduction of massive cellphone radiation in cities.

The fact that humans breed kama rupas -- the desire bodies of the dead -- is another major reason why the secrets of the adepts, as to the nature of ourselves and the universe, have gone completely underground. The adepts simply do not mix with humans and even the power elite of this world are not allowed into the presence of the adepts of this world, for fear of contamination. I believe that somewhere in the Pacific is a vast or perhaps not so vast continent or at least island or series of islands on which exists a much more advanced civilization of humans, the adepts themselves, of which we are comparable apes.

Also, theosophy speaks of the present state of human evolution (taking the species as whole) as being not yet close to fully mentally developed. According to esoteric teachings, it will take at least another 250,000 to 500,000 years for humans to make the next truly significant step in their mental development -- and another 500,000 years after that before we become fully mentally developed. Hence, we live in an age of "government" which literally means "mind-control" because we simply have not the mental capacities to manage ourselves (not speaking of individuals but of the race as a whole).

Mercola on the Light Body

I posted a link previously, perhaps it was June or July, on a Star Trek TNG episode on the Light Body, or Linga Sarira of the Hindus. Here's Mercola's stab at it.

Melchizidek and the Mystery of Fire

Just finished reading this very short book. It's in three parts ... wish I could give a quick synopsis -- perhaps it's best to check out the glowing reviews on amazon.com. I highlighted and underlined quite a bit -- a bit too much to print out the interesting parts here.

The first part is an introduction in defense of the fact that all religions, east and west, have "fire" or "light" as their fundamental deity -- sometimes appearances to the contrary -- but Manly P. Hall is quick to point out that this "fire" is not necessarily physical or material fire, but the fire known as "akasa" or "the astral light" or, several other names, basically it is the "ethereal fire" that is one (Hall says the highest) of the four elements of the ancients.

The content of the second part of "Melchizidek" is a little harder to pin down. It's title "Man, Grand Symbol of the Mysteries" is the same as the title of another entire book by Hall. The chapter is necessarily less detailed, touching mainly on the idea introduced previously that there really are three aspects of the "fire" worshiped by all races, corresponding to the three aspects of man's constitution -- heart (heaven), body (hell), mind (earth, or the middle ground). In the first part he calls these Will (heart, heaven), Action or Friction (earth), and Wisdom or Intelligence (mind, meeting between heaven and earth). I may be a little off on the correspondences, but they're never very clear in occult writings, and when they are, they're often contradicted in other writings.

In any case, the second part also involves a defense of the argument made at the book's outset, namely that almost all, if not all, religious lore, writings, symbolism, processions, rituals, even architecture pertain to certain secret, i.e. occult, knowledge of man's true, spiritual, constitution as well as to the means of achieving spiritual regeneration -- resulting in membership of the highest mystery school on Earth -- according to him -- the order of Melchizidek.

The third part of the book explores the phenomenon of the kundalini energy, the chakra/nadi system as well as the role played by both the pituitary (the mother gland, Isis) and the pineal gland (Osiris?) in achieving spiritual regeneration.

I am perhaps cheating the reader of this review of the many quotable quotes from this short, enjoyable and highly readable book. Compare Hall's easy-reading writing style to a mentor of both his and mine -- the venerable H.P. Blavatsky, whose writing (cf. the Secret Doctrine) is often very difficult reading.

Quotes from Melchizidek (this is not representative of the numerous passages I found interesting in the book, but here are a few).

"The auric body of a snake is one of the most remarkable sights that the clairvoyant will ever see, and the secrets concealed within this aura demonstrate why the serpent is the symbol of wisdom among so many nations."

"The golden ornaments upon the altars of Christian churches should remind the philosophical observer that gold is the sacred metal of the sun, because, according to alchemists, the sun ray itself crystallized in the earth, thus forming this precious metal, which, incidentally is still being made."

"The initiates view the blood as a mysterious liquid, somewhat gaseous in nature, which served as a medium for manifesting the fire of man's spiritual nature. This fire, coursing through the system, animated and vitalized all parts of the form, thus keeping the spiritual nature in touch with all of its physical extremities."

"The Egyptians considered the juice of the grape to be more nearly like human blood than any other substance. In fact, they believed that the grape secured its life from the blood of the dead who had been buried in the earth."

"The highest of each kingdom in Nature was considered symbolic of the sun. Hence, the scarab beetle, being the most intelligent of all insects, the eagle the most aspiring of all birds, and the lion the strongest of all beasts were considered fitly symbolic of the solar disc."

Small Earth

So, um, if we're so small, why does it hurt so much?

Surety

"A surety is a person who agrees to be responsible for the debt or obligation of another. Furthermore, a surety is also a "security against loss or damage or for the fulfillment of an obligation, the payment of a debt, etc.; a pledge, guaranty, or bond."

Wikipedia

Psychopathic Society Part 3

“The Kennedy assassination has demonstrated that most of the major events of world significance are masterfully planned and orchestrated by an elite coterie of enormously powerful people who are not of one nation, one ethnic grouping, or one overridingly important business group. They are a power unto themselves for whom those others work. Neither is this power elite of recent origin. Its roots go deep into the past.”

— L. Fletcher Prouty

Psychopathic Society Part 2

“Just look at us. Everything is backwards; everything is upside down. Doctors destory health, lawyers destroy justice, universities destroy knowledge, governments destroy freedom, the major media destroy information and religions destroy spirituality.”

— Michael Ellner

Lisbon Treaty

I don't know much about the Lisbon Treaty, but this clip is an example of the fact that we live in a psychopathic society.

Mass Sterilization in Effect

Global sperm counts have dropped by a third since 1989 and by half in the past 50 years. The rate of decline is only accelerating as more and more couples find it harder to have children. In studies of white European men, the rate of decline is as much as 50 per cent in the last 30 years. In Italy, this equates to a native population reduction of 22 per cent by 2050. Population reduction is already occurring amongst native residents in many areas of Europe and America.

Everything from cellphone signals, to eating soy products, to female hormones entering the water supply from HRT products has been blamed. There’s no doubt that environmental pollution from industry and pharmaceutical products has contributed, but new research has uncovered that additional chemicals known as Antiandrogens are now finding their way into the water supply.


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One More Reason to Be Depressed

I wonder why I'm so depressed. Here's one more reason.

Holy S%&t, Welcome to My Life:

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The character Tam in this episode of Star Trek TNG exhibits similar difficulties as I have had all my life.

Mind Control

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Rohn on the Price of Happiness

The Light Body

Here is a Link to a story about the Light Body of man. Said body is that around which the material body forms -- in other words, it is the body from which the material body is vitalized or gains its life.

The Global Mystery School

A few sentences on what I believe is the reality of the social system that we live in. The ancient Mystery School tradition -- the so-called university of the soul -- often involved very rigorous entry criteria, tests of body, mind, and spirit that sometimes resulted in physical death of the candidates who failed the tests.

The Mystery School has gone underground since at least the beginning of the Age of Pisces (around the birth of Christ), inaccessible to almost everyone, I suspect that the entire world system has been turned into a Mystery School in which we are all candidates or probators if you will, seeking, unknowingly, entrance into the Mystery School Curriculum.

We're given many, many severe tests -- namely being injected with mercury when we're just babies, being subject to the sham-education in the form of the K-12 curriculum, being further subject to the mind-controlling elements of media, and higher education, being tempted with materialist life-style through advertising, being forced to live a subsistence life-style even in so called developed nations, etc. etc. All this, it appears to me is totally unnecessary, regardless of whether I've presented a convincing argument. We could have a heaven on Earth if the will was there. It's not.

Further, we're taken over more and more by "incorporated" beings ("corporations"), and the "corporatizing" of states is very esoterically symbolic of the fact that we have failed or are failing in our application to the Mystery School curriculum. Said curriculum is about freeing oneself from body, i.e. from the corporate state of being, from the mistaken notion that we are material or physical beings -- we are not. Our physical bodies are not more real than a projected image on a movie screen. The screen in this case being matter, which is molded and shaped by our higher principles. Our brains do not think, they pick up thoughts from our mind which lies outside our bodies, our hearts do not give us life, but merely receive the life-principle from the energy that surrounds us.

Theosophy

I thought this was a wonderful explanation of the fundamentals of Theosophy.

Mercola on Swine Flue Vaccine

"Swine flu" vaccine may become mandatory, resulting in another mass killing campaign brought to you by your benevolent government. With the total collapse of the US dollar imminent, plus another world war being currently manufactured by the media (for the third time) -- Hell, it appears, be right 'round the corner. 'Luck humanity!

Planned and Perceived Obsolescence

Interesting take on the "system" or "The Leviathan" as Thomas Hobbes referred to western "civilization". Link

How Long is a Year?

According to some, the Earth takes exactly 360 days to make one revolution around the sun and not the 365.25 days that is known as the sidereal year. The reason for the difference lies in the fact that, according to the same some, the Sun has it's own parent star that it revolves around. This revolution, according to John Gordon (Egypt, Child of Atlantis) is 25,920 Earth years long (called the Great Year, or Platonic Year, and known about since antiquity). The shifting of the Sun into a different sign of the zodiac every 2160 years (25,920/12) is explained by modern science by a wobble of the Earth's axis similar to the phenomenon of precession of a spinning top. This extremely complex and highly contrived thesis is unprovable, and no other planet or object in the heavens has been reported to experience the same effect.

The Earth moves around the Sun in an eastward direction (counter-clockwise), the Sun is conjectured to move around its parent star in a westward direction (clockwise). This conflict in the directions forces the Earth to move more than one complete revolution around the sun in order to complete the apparent or sidereal year in which the sun returns to an identical position in the sky relative to the fixed stars in the background. The following corroborating correspondence is striking to say the least: 1/25,920 is the fraction of the Great Circle (the Great Year) that the Earth passes through in one of its years. This is equal to 1/72 of 1 degree -- in Earth time that equates to just over 5 days! Thus we see that it takes exactly 360 days for the Earth to circle the Sun and arrive at exactly the same point in space with respect to the Sun -- however, because the Earth, and Sun, are also moving around a greater star (in a clock wise direction), the Earth is forced to move 5 more days (in a counter-clockwise direction) in order for the Sun to occupy the same position relative to the fixed stars in the background.

John Gordon goes into other aspects involved in the relative movements and positions of the heavenly spheres. Example, the Earth's seasons are claimed by modern science to be solely the result of the Earth's axis being at an angle to the Sun's equator. This "fact" however need not necessarily be so. The Earth may, as Gordon claims, simply orbit at an angle to the Sun's equator, spending half the year above and half the year below its equator. As the Earth reaches it's solstices, it may extend partially beyond the Sun's Interplanetary Magnetic Field (IMF) and this would account for another alleged "wobble" of the Earth's axis -- called nutation -- occuring precisely every 183 days.

Is Your Printer Spying on You?

Interesting video on one of the ways big brother has entered your home.

The JFK No-Brainer

Same stand down of security took place in Rabin's murder, 9/11 (NORAD stood down for first time in its then 50 history on the morning of the attacks), Pearl Harbor (FDR disallowed submarines far out in Pacific ocean to warn the harbor of impending attack), etc., etc. down through the thousands of years of history keep falling for totally in-your-face murder on the part of your benevolent government.

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Ocean's Eleven and Century 21

The number "9" has often been represented by the ocean by occultists (cf Manly P Hall, Secret Teachings). Because it is the number of physical generation (9 months in the 'ocean' of the womb) it is also referred to as the number of man in his unregenerate state, spiritually unregenerate, that is.

But, also, the number 11 represents falling short, i.e. sin. This is because 11 falls short of the perfect number 12 (cf. Cornelius Aggripa's classic works on western occultism).

So, by 9/11, and Ocean's Eleven, is signified, esoterically, "the fall of man."

Further, the "Falling Tower" has always been symbolic among occultists of the exact same phenomenon, i.e. the fall of spiritual man into an unregenerate state, a materialist state (cf Manly P Hall on the 16th Tarot card) .

Century 21 began with the towers falling and this provides the theme for the century, the segregation of those who worship matter (whose destiny is the VeriChip; Alex Jones has part of the story) and those who are spiritually realized. The catch phrase of the movie: "Are you in or out?" i.e. will you be counted among the spiritualists or will you pay the price of your own materialism?

Stanley Monteith, The Brotherhood of Darkness

I love this lecture, and Stan Monteith's work. Unlike Monteith, I'm not an exoteric Christian, meaning I don't believe in the corrupt post-Nicene creed, but I still find great value and take great interest in his research. Here he speaks of and summarizes the work of Caroll Quigley (The Anglo-American Establishment; Tragedy and Hope; Evolution of Civilizations) who wrote the greatest works of history in the 20th century.

The Endocrine Glands

The seven glands -- ductless and otherwise -- with which occultism is primarily concerned, are the pineal gland, the pituitary body, the thymus, the liver, the spleen, and the suprarenal capsules, or adrenals. These little understood bodies, at least some of which were given consideration in ancient times but were more or less ignored during the Dark Ages, have now come to be recognized as the "dictators of destiny". Enthusiastic endocrinologists are now of the opinion that not only the harmony of the "bodily league" but also the higher aspects of man's functioning -- his morals, emotions, and thoughts, his personality, individuality, and temperament -- are to a great degree a matter of endocrines. Not Dr. Johnson's drop of green bile but the glands are what put empires at hazard. Napoleon's own pituitary -- and not the Duke of Wellington -- brought down the eagle of the First Empire. Apropos of this, ponder the words of Samuel Wyllis Bandler: "If the world, in the future, administers to its diplomats, to its highest officials, to its legislators, to its people the proper endocrines, especially anterior pituitary, and inhibit the adrenal cortex a little bit, there may be no more wars." (See "The Endocrines")

Manly P Hall, Man, Grand Symbol of the Mysteries

Ron Paul on MSNBC

Supertramp, Rudy

I love this song. I believe it is about the fact of reincarnation. "Rudy is on a train to nowhere [death], halfway down the line [halfway through life]. He don't want to get there, but he needs time." And at the end of the song "Rudy just got out the movie [life], numb of all the pain. Sad, but in a while he'll soon be, back on his train [another life]."